Will We See Him?

Grade R (Kindergarten) orientation was today.

We are walking in the answer to prayers we never knew we’d pray. Benjamin will start Grade R on Wednesday at a cottage school created for children with special needs. There are two loving teachers to care for the four children in his class - a class he can continue with until he’s 16. The school’s owner was a grade 1 teacher at one of SA’s most distinguished schools for many years. She decided to pursue a passion and open a school for kids like Benjamin, so they could also access the gift of learning. Her son has the same unusual diagnosis as our Jam, and I feel a lump in my throat as I type and think about him being seen and understood for who he is. It’s not the school experience I thought we’d have. Instead, it’s one dripping with favor, grace and an inability to deny there’s a God who sees us.

I’m incredibly impacted today at watching Benjamin go through normal, expected struggles in transitioning to a new environment. Fear in his eyes. Head slamming into me for cover. But he did it. We did it. We walked home, sweaty hand in hand, processing.

Everyone, autism or not, will face struggles. We will all live parts of life we didn’t sign up for. But will we all have eyes to see the God who sees us when we end up needing God where we didn’t want to need Him? Will we see how richly blessed we are? How sovereign He is?

Let’s look.